Aku kira air mata aku udah kering, aku udah kuat dan ngga nangis lagi. I thought that i cant cry again after a lot of tears, but not. It is hard ya Allah, this is really really hard, Astaghfirullah

  people will always judge me based on what i said or what i did. mom will as well, but she validate my emotion, she let me crying for whatever reasons. now i know why it is called 5 stages of grief and why denial is being one of them...

Hi, papa. 26 oct you plan to go to rs today for routine consultation, but not for icu. And you want to go to lempuyangan by train on sunday, but not that lempuyang 1208 room. today is stroke day, but it shouldnt be for you. I know you are strong, we lost you for 4 minutes and alhamdulillah you come back. i am here, dad, we are here. I know you are really a good person and i hope more people will know it. Hasbunallah Wanikmal Wakil Nikmal Maula Wanikman Nasir...

  my dad is in emergency now, please pray for him i thought that i would never going through this, but maybe He knows better, maybe He loves him.  please ya Allah, beri sembuh sehat walafiat. please give me a chance to make him happy. 

ya Allah aku cuma mau hidup tenang ga banyak  drama macem2 ya Allah, energi aku ga banyak 😭😭😭 🤲🤲🤲