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about love hard

rasanya sudah lama ngga nonton romcom yang hmm ngasih efek like butterfly in my stomach.

it was love hard, yang membuatku wondering, maybe the most important thing for me is someone who cares and stays, and it is enough more than anything else. 

i watched love hard yesterday, and surprisingly it was one of the film that give some butterflies in my stomach, sesuatu yang jarang kutemui, kecuali hospital playlist kemarin.

it is a super cheesy rom com, but somehow felt quite warm(?) and i love how the film shows Josh's expression.

the story was begin with Natalie being catfished by Josh in dating app. ngga membenarkan what Josh did, but then i was wondering, if Josh were using the real profile picture since the first time, how much the probability Natalie will swipe him and match with him, and has opportunities to know him better, to meet someone who is genuinely kind, someone who cares and keeps stay.

an idea that some people need more effort to show other people that s/he is good (enough) is somehow hmm apa ya, mind blowing.

and i just don't really understand with an idea of marriage market that makes people need to show what s/he can offer. 

josh once said "ada orang lain di balik kebohongan itu yang jatuh cinta pada versi dirimu yang tidak ada (dan itu tidak adil, sebab mereka itu akan berakhir dengan kekecewaan)".

or it might be go like this actually "atau mungkin ada orang yang jatuh cinta pada versi dirimu apa adanya dirimu".

love,
Ayu