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 Tentang survivorship bias

After my first job, i feel lonely most of the time in my education and career journey. And being introvert person just make it worse. 

I moved from nutrition to econ with fears whether i made a right decision because i got so many rejections and degrading questions back then. Thank God my parents were really supportive, but still I felt so clueless with everything. 

It turned out obtaining hard skills from two years of career pause for an education was really something. It really saves me from a thought that i dont have options. This feeling is somehow really good.

And because i know how hard it is and how happy i feel after a lot of fears, then some parts of me want to share it. I thought that maybe there is someone out there who has the same problems and my experience would help. 

I was bubbling how tech and learning coding (padahal cuma stata wkwk) save me. Also, how right my decisions was.

But then, i suddenly realize that it became my coping for a kind-of-validation. I found my self see me as a-person-who-is-not-afraid-to-quit-and-take-risk, which is so annoying. 

I have bias of my own, i have survivorship bias. Maybe because most of the time I feel alone, surrounding with more experienced people in the field, so I need people validate my choice,  but, then i know it was not right. 

After all, everyone has their own journey. And like i ever said, "perasaan beruntung (dan diberkahi) itu personal".

Semoga selalu diberkati, apapun itu...

Bests,

Ayu