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i am in the situation that i know something about someone and i know she has a problem but i think she does not know that i know and i feel really guilty about this because somehow i feel like i am really not a good friend. 

i am, really, not a good friend. 

and i dont know what to do.

last time i met her was march last year, and i was thought she was very ok. good career with a kid. i know she was doing fine because she usually randomly asked for a meeting when she was in town, and i usually will meet her if i did not have any  schedule. but, many times, i was missing opportunity to meet her. 

but she still remembered and congratulated me for my last birthday.

then i was hanging out with other friends and we had video call with her. she seemed fine. she is on the way getting her master degree.

then i want to know how she is. i do hope she's doing fine. i know she has instagram, but i dont have instagram, and i searched her name on google page. i found her protected  instagram profil with very nice bio, and suddenly i saw her divorce statement in one google page.

i dont know what to do. 

i am very confused. i hope it is not true but i downloaded the document and it is exactly mentioning her name. i want to ask my other friend but i really dont want to gossiping her. i want to ask my mom or my sister (since they know her also) what should i do but i dont think it is very nice to tell. 

i was thinking divorce just a thing until i suddenly found a person that i know personally facing that sitution.

i've never imagine that it will happen. i mean i read afu 5 stage of grieves and i know there are something like married in your 25 and divorce in 30. but i never ever think that it will happen with someone i know for years.

i really dont know what to do right now.

i only do wish the best for her, the very best for her. i hope she and her kid will always fine and happy.

with so much guilty feelings

Ayu