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being adult is really tiring. a time that i realize that i should be always ok and pretend to be ok. and i dont have time to process my feelings because i need to solve the problem and find solution. with all the responsibilities and various roles that i have. and everyone will always feel they are the victim of every one else. and i did my best that i can but i always feel that is not enough, that i should always understand but they never tried understand me that i also have the scars, but again, being adult felt that i am not allowed to be weak and i should not feel like a victim and i am so tired. that i know i have to fix my self but then i dont have time and i doubt that it will solve the problem, because somehow i think it is not me, but them.

pms this time feels really hard. but again, for many times, what i can do is just keeping it with myself, like i always do..