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about common names

There are some times that I accidentally met people I knew in an occasion. And sometimes ago I coincidentally met someone, a long time colleague and she said like this

"Eh, kayanya kenal, yang di sini (tempat kerja lama) bukan. Siapa ya, lupa."

I very often need to add something that is attached to me, to remind them aku ayu yang mana. I bet you have met a lot of people named ayu.

I had a classmate who was called ayu, even though it was not her first name, and ofc she was so much pretier, smarter, part of super famous gank. My neighbor's kid's name is ayu. My boss sometimes mistakenly sent email which was for another ayu. I even felt that I shared my name with my sister who has only two different alphabets with mine. When a friend made a call years ago with the one and only cable phone, my dad/mom would ask, "ayu yang kelas berapa?"

I was thinking that my name is not my own, even for my full name.

Later, it feels good when I realize that it won't be easy to find me on the social media. You will find so many accounts of other ayu out there. Mostly because I don't want to be known and remembered with something that is attached to me.

But, I really like my name now, and I think that's one of the best things that my parents gave to me.

And when a friend told me about that black/white earphone and gave me a black wired one, he knew that I wasn't a spotlight. i was never a spotlight, and i think i don't want to be a spotlight.

And recently I met someone who also has so common name with so many big names out there. And surprisingly this person does not have an Instagram account (I do have one just as a search engine and not for making connections) but being so extremely humble. I found there was no impression of any concern about being seen as that another "someone".

But, there are some strange moments that happened in my life with common names. One of them is when my dad had an appointment with dr. Hafidz the internist, but ends up meet dr. Hafiz the anesthesiologist in ICU. And the only male nurse we met which was really helpfull in that super long tiring day before my dad went to ICU has the same name as the person I should meet with. Or when i saw a film above 36thousands feet from a very far away place and the names of the main roles are the same with people i'd just met.

How likely is it going to happen in life? Why do He let me meet those people?

Then, I was thinking, actually people will remember you not because of how you treat them, but because they let you be part of their life. You can be a social butterfly or have so many followers or meet people in so many meetings, but you only see them just as people who passing by.

And I wish I have real connections with real persons who let me to be part of their life.

That is why I really do appreciate someone who remembers me, as me who somehow happens in their life, without me need to add ayu yang di xx, ayu yang ini, ayu yang itu, ayu with what is attached with her.

Ayu

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