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about coincidences in life

today (or yesterday) is really tiring. 

this is the first day after long holiday season for most of people, although we officially start on 9. i just found a fact that i need to go through out birocrautic hurdles only for a legal  evidence letter. i got three times cancel when ordering online taxi after seing doctors with less than 3% of phone battery but didnot bring charger while it was almost 7 pm. i got sleep early but wake up in the midnight with bunch of high tension work-related chats. and when i want to work my laptop is hang now, i restarted it and it is still freezing. 

and i cant imagine emotional work loads this morning.

it is not really a good start for my new age. while usually it started with a warm congratulation message from my dad in our family chat group. 

i need more zen in life.

i drafted a birthday post, but it was not really well though. but sometimes it is better done than perfect.

it is about coincidences that you meet in life.

i sometimes questioning the concept of coincidences in life. like how much the probability you will sudenly find it in your random life episodes. and how much it matters to you and help you make decisions, for example.

sesederhana tiba-tiba bertemu yang kukenal in an occasion, atau tiba-tiba menemukan arts that portrayed my life so much, atau bertemu dengan nama yang sama as i wrote in the previous post, atau se cheesy bertaruh dengan takdir that someone i am interested to using the clothes with same colors with mine, atau going through random conversation that made me think apakah ini cuma kebetulan or someone is stalking me.

gue ngga kenal banyak orang. i am not social butterfly, jadi it is really rare i met someone i know in an occassion. sesederhana ketemu dosen di supermarket atau di toko kopi, ketemu long time "kenalan" waktu ikut ujian, sampai sekelas sama teman sma di course years after college padahal sama sekali ngga janjian. i've written some of them and i realize that people do change, sometimes, and maybe i do also change. kadang rasanya udah ga sefrekuensi lagi, kadang ada yang masih nyambung aja. 

and arts. i dont know how some arts can portrayed that much in each of my life episodes. i was watching because this is my first life and it was suddenly quoted gary becker which was my lecturer always said in microecon class. or hospital playlist with song hwa's undelivered present. or a film that i wrote in the previous post with a bench named look up, that i am doing now (yang ga selesai2 hiks). atau wlgyt which about the eldest daughter with great parents. atau an mv of photographs by ed sheeran which i think it is really my dad's song. he really likes taking pictures and he wants a working studio for his photography hobby and he always asked me "hari ini pulang jam berapa ya", waiting for me to come home. 

kadang, gue meromantisasi hidup gue dengan nyambung-nyambungin kebetulan kebetulan yang gue temui dalam hidup gue. misalnya seperti yang gue tulis kemarin tentang common names. atau waktu gue pertama kali pergi ke europe. gue jarang banget cerita ini ke orang-orang. i went to wien and lndn and oxfd. and i was thinking, is it the sign that i need to pursue my dream to develop something that roser did, haha. 

and sometimes the coincidences are in the form of random conversations that i had.

- to be continued -