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coincidences part three: a random conversation

it is "i am here".

words that i have never thought i need the most before i heard someone said so. 

i am really grateful having thoughtful persons around me.

but suddenly in some random conversations, i heard someone said "i am here", many times to reassure me and convince me that i will find a person who will always be there and makes me feel that i will not be alone. words that i never thought i would hear from someone that i least expected out of nowhere who did not know me before. 

i just cant help myself to think it is what i really need to hear these days, "i am here" while everyone just wants to leave. 

my dad, friends, workmates, an old time crush. i cant stop thinking that they chose to leave even though i know people do come and go and i understand they go for good.

but "i am here" is another level of words. and it hit me so hard, really hard.

ternyata aku ngga butuh compliment whatever, i dont need wishes to be strong etc, i dont need peole said i did the right thing or people said just forget it. i just need someone who will stay, consiously stay.

and when i have random conversation with my mom, she also needs it more than any wishes.

it  was just a daily conversation, it means nothing though, it does really not mean anything, you can hear it anywhere anywhen from anyone, but at that time, it really means a lot for me.

aku tuh kadang-kadang sering dianggap jahat evethough i didnt really mean it or because i didnt think what will people feel when i said something. but then, maybe being sincerely kind in this hard cruel world will make people feel better. 

-to be continued-