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If you’re somewhere between your mid twenties and thirties, you might be experiencing a serious low point in your life. A trial of confused identity, misguided purpose, and hopeless transition

(Patrick Allan, via Lifehacker.com)

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Quarter Life Crisis.

It takes more than a year for me getting through it and it was really not easy. Saat itu gue seperti lost of direction, gue ragu akan segalanya. Rasa ragu yang membuat gue takut setengah mati ambil keputusan, karena gue merasa setiap keputusan yang selama ini gue ambil salah.

Sampai akhirnya gue ngga sengaja ketemu artikel tentang Quarter Life Crisis di Lifehacker dan menyimpulkan sendiri kalau gue ada dalam kondisi ini. Kondisi di saat gue thinking too much for everything, ketika gue takut mengecewakan orang lain tapi di sisi lain gue ngga bahagia, mempertanyakan my life purpose.

Gue inget banget dulu pernah nulis kalau periode usia dua puluhan mungkin akan jadi kehidupan yang paling berat. People might change their role more than three times in their twenties. Jadi anak, (masih) mahasiswa, lulus kuliah, cari kerja, jadi pegawai, menikah, punya anak, promosi jadi manager, atau kuliah lagi jadi mahasiswa lagi, atau mungkin stuck. Setelah menjalani usia dua puluhan gue realize that, indeed, it is really hard.

Alhamdulillah, gue punya support system yang membantu gue secara ngga langsung getting through it. Finally, I do hope I could be more mature by now. Kapan kapan mungkin akan nulis how I experienced my quarter life crisis, and how can I get through it.


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