54th

and all you can do is hope for the best!

These past weeks feel so overwhelmed, and maybe still being overwhelmed for the months ahead with all the things happened and deadlines and etc. But, recently, I find myself physically, emotionally, cognitively exhausted.

Ngga sih, mungkin hanya lelah, dan membutuhkan banyak doa, haha.

Meet great people do the great things kadang menjadi beban tersendiri, pun kadang dihadapkan pada mereka yang penuh keberuntungan di hidupnya, sesimpel mendapatkan berbagai kesempatan baik, dan kemudian tanpa sadar seperti dibebankan harapan yang sangat tinggi, yang kadang takut tidak terpenuhi, tapi di sisi lain harus tetap sane, tetap strong, karena menjadi sandaran orang-orang di sekitar.

but, I just can't please everyone right. I can't happy all the time.

I sad, sometimes. 

karena di sisi lain, menyadari kalau tidak baik-baik saja karena mulai sering mempertanyakan setiap keputusan yang dibuat dan membandingkan keberuntungan, tapi juga menyadari kalau harus menjaga diri sendiri untuk tetap bahagia dan ber-vibe positif, haha (?)

tapi hidup harus tetap dijalani dengan sebaik-baiknya kan, meskipun kadang berjalan tidak sesuai harapan.

but, I know that I always have choices, and it is what I choose, so why worry.

katanya sih,

being strong is to love someone in silence, to radiate happiness when we are unhappy, to forgive someone who does not deserve forgiveness, to stay calm in moments of despair, to show joy when we do not feel it, to smile when we want to cry, to make someone happy when our heart is broken, to be silent when we feel like screaming our anguish, to comfort when we need to be comforted, and to have faith when we no longer believe...

and since I always have a comforting hug from my mom every time I feel bad, but this time, maybe its my turn for comfort her and dad, to not worry that much.


Regards,
Ayu
hope for the best

Mohon doanya :")