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i was wondering when i lost my dad, people came and said how kind my dad is. and i had  strange feelings because i was happy knowing that my dad is really a good person but still it cant make him back. 

but, yes, i am really glad to know that he is very kind. 

and when i got a condolecense message about the passing of a very good friend, then i was wondering what would the kids think when a lot of people said how kind their mother is.

at first, i was mistakenly read the message, i thought it was her husband, but it is her.

a really dear friend, a very patience, and sabr, and cheerfull mother. never complain about life. and i was remember she was asking me "kamu ngga papa?" when she knew that my sister was getting married in a very caring tone voice when i was drove her to train station.

she is really kind person and i am lucky to know her. i hope and i know she go in peace and heaven is her best place now.

and i was really shock but again, life never stops to surprise you with the timing, coincidences, serendipity, etc.

i was in the middle of anything when read the message. people were talk about gene therapy and genomics and those advance technology but in the other side of my life, there are kids who lost their mother because of cancer. and i just read someone's story who just lost her father because of cardiac arrest and stroke. 

and when in research, they are statistics but for someone, they are more than anything. and i was thinking that maybe every person have a little contribution to make people have more additional valuable time with their loved one. your advocacy, or research, or food you've made, clothes you've design, writings, pictures, anything. and i think i found a more meaningful purpose for what i do so far as i said in my old post, that i want to make the world a bit better place to life.

maybe i really need come back soon. and this situation makes me remember a good book that i have just finished after a long time. a book about grieving that i bought on june 2024 as a gift for a friend (who is now relapsed, that maybe it is a sign that i need to come back soon), but turns out it helped me instead.

ya, maybe i need to come back sooner. and i hope it will be fine..